I'll finally be Free

I want to shoot my heart into a thousand pieces
and let all the pain gush out of me.
I want to forget all the horrible and stupid mistakes
I have done.
I wish I could start my life over,
not feeling so guilty.
But you only live once...
or do you?

I regret so many things,
but I have to suck it up and deal with it.
I tell myself, "Keep ignoring them. 
Don't let them get into your head. Fight them.
Forget them. Keep surviving. Don't give up.

Be Brave. Move on."

Sooner or later, I'll be free from guilt;
free from regret.
I'll be happy.
I'll finally be free.

Just Go Away.

I ask you to leave me be
but you don't.
Why can't you understand
I want my privacy?
Do I have to simply
yell at you to go away?
You are a bother to me.
I hate you for all those
horrible things you do to me.
What have I done wrong?
Do you think you're protecting me?
Do you think this is all for my own good?
YOU DON'T FRICKEN CARE.
You're just an annoying brother
who likes to get me into trouble.
Be thankful I didn't give up on living.