I'm Happy, isn't it that Enough?

before you read this, i would like to say that i did not write this. a friend of mine did
here is the link to read and fav it: http://kerikaru.deviantart.com/art/perception-422972844
its below the actual poem she posted

I never had many qualms with how I looked.
It wasn't until I decided I felt better
dressing in boys' clothes on some days, and
girls' clothes on others
that I suddenly felt trapped every time someone looked at me.

It wasn't until I heard them asking me
why I chose to look like a boy most days
and praising me on the days I looked like a “pretty girl”;
it wasn't until then that I started to be more conscious
of the way strangers looked at me.

And suddenly I was thinking of everyone:
the way my classmates looked at me, and
the way people I've known my whole life
looked at me.

And I realized that I had been
“normal”
I fit the stereotype
on the outside.
And on those days, back then,
I didn't think of anyone else.
It wasn't until I broke out of that stereotype
that I felt insecurity over something as simple
as how I looked.

I never felt insecure
over how I looked.
And that's a lucky thing to some people
and it's terrifying to realize now
that even though I'm comfortable
in how I dress, and how I look;
I am uncomfortable
every time someone else looks at me.
Because even if it's just an innocent glance
I can't see it as that anymore.

It feels like judgement.

You asked me when I was going to start
wearing pretty clothes.
You asked me when I was going to stop
wearing boys' clothes.
You asked me when I was going to start
acting like a girl.
So the next time you ask me when,
I am going to ask you
what it means
to act
like
a girl.

I am going to ask you
the definition
of stereotype.
I am going to ask you
the definition
of acceptance.

I am going to ask you
that if I kept being this way
would you still love me?
Or are you going to just
keep waiting for me to grow out
of something that I am going to live with
for the rest
of
my
life?

Are you going to keep waiting to understand
why
when the answer is so simple?

( I'm happy )
( Isn't it enough? )

My One Sided Love

Why do I even bother with him?
I know that my love is only one sided.
He knows that my love is only one sided.
HE KNOWS.
WHY do I even bother?
What makes me want to go on?

Do I want to make him suffer?
What use would that do?
Will I be happy?
Or will I feel guilty?
Do I want to make him mine?
We both know that's not happening.
We both know he still has a girlfriend.

Please make up your mind.
I can't take it anymore.

Just Thinking about You

I think about you
even though I have work to do
and things to accomplish.
I should be thinking of 
other important factors, but
my mind starts to wonder off
and you appear in my mind.

My image of you
just fills my heart.

I like the way you would

talk to me,
and how you would smile with me.

I wish we could be together

with my parent's approval.

But I guess there's a hidden meaning
why we can't be together.
But I’m glad we're still friends
even if we both know

that we like one another.

So why did fate bring us together?

Forgive Me?

I could say "I love you" a thousand times,
but you wouldn't care.
I could say that I care for you,
but it wouldn't matter to you.
I wonder if you even loved me.
I wonder if you ever cared.

How am I supposed to smile
when all you do is smile
at someone else?
How am I supposed to forgive you
if you're not even sorry?

I thought we had a connection.
I thought you cared.
But I guess I thought wrong.
You broke my heart
and you're not even sorry.
I won't forgive you.

Hopeless

Why am I even here?
Why am I even alive?
Why on earth would I
want to live longer
if I'm already suffering?

Why can't I just end my life
right now?
What's holding me back?
Is it fear?
Why am I afraid?
Or rather,
what am I afraid of?
The after-life perhaps?
Or simply just
nothing?

Now that I think about it,
it does seem a little bit scary.
But some day,
I will have to face the consequences
and meet that fear.

Stranger I Liked

I constantly think about you
even though I have work to do
and things to accomplish.
I should be thinking of 
other important factors,but
my mind starts to wonder off
and you appear in my mind.

My image of you
just fills my heart.
The sad part is that
I can only imagine
how you would talk to me,
how you would smile,
and many more.

I wish we could meet

without it being awkward.
But we live in two separate worlds

and it's kinda sad to think about
how it's impossible for us to be together,
and how we would  live our separate lives
forgetting each other.
So why did fate brought us together?

Love at First Sight?

From the moment I first met you,
I have already fallen for you.
I didn't believe in love at first sight,
but I guess it happened.
You came into my world
like a shining knight.
Too bad we're so far away
from each other.
Too bad fate hasn't brought us
together.

I want to be with you,
but it's impossible since
we live in two separate worlds.

Is it already bad enough
that I'm constantly thinking about you?
Is it already bad enough
that I know we're never going to be
together?
I know I should have some hope, but
I'm just stating what's true.
I wish I could see you again.

Just Me

No matter how many times you tell me that I'm pretty,
it won't matter to me.
You don't even know me,
and you say you like my smile and my eyes.
I don't see what you see, but I know that
I'm just a nice girl who doesn't really care about looks 
because all I need is my kind personality.

Emptiness

I wish I had no emotions.
I wouldn't feel pain,
I wouldn't feel sadness,
I wouldn't feel anger, 
happiness, love, joy,
frustrated, heartbroken, etc.
Would I be bland though?
But I would have a better chance
of living life feeling nothing inside.

Another set of Feelings

Someone please help me.

Someone please stop this pain within me.

I want it gone...

It is tearing me in shreds;

I just can’t take it anymore.

I try to forget...

but I fail at the end.

Please come save me.

I'm so sorry...

I see your name on my email and

I desperately want to talk to you.

But I can’t because my future

depends on me and my actions.

I can’t risk the temptations of talking to you.

I only have one life and one chance to get into college

and see the world.

Can you understand that?

It’s not like I’m purposely ignoring you.

I just can’t talk to you right now.

It breaks my heart to see you trying.

I’m so sorry.

Please understand.

You make lemonade :)

This world is a messed up world.

What happened to comfort?

What happened to caring?

What happened to, “Let’s change the world together!”?

Did that all just disappear?

Life is unfair and cruel.

Did you really think you will get a happy ending?

Did you really think you can just sleep away

all your problems?

Did you really think your parents will be there

with you forever?

Did you really think your friends will help you

every single day of their lives?

Think again.

Not everything you have imagined

will turn out perfect

or what you have wanted.

Instead, it will be just what you didn't expect.

Sometimes what you don’t expect

comes out positive.

And you think again that maybe

this world isn't as bad as it seems.

Even though life may be unfair and cruel,

but when life chucks at you with lemons,
you either chuck them back or

you make lemonade.

I Do What I Want

I Do What I Want
whether you like it or not.
You can't always tell me
what I can or cannot do.
Maybe you can ... but
will I listen to your desires?

Sometimes I know that you
always want the best out of me,
but sometimes you can get
a little out of hand.

I may not know everything by now,

but you do not have to protect me
every second of my life.
Let me learn from my mistakes
even if I do it repeatedly.
Don't be angry for not listening
to your requests, your desires,
your hopes and dreams ...
because maybe, in the future,
I will become someone
you will not expect in life.
Someone not like you.
But maybe, if you get lucky,
I'll become someone
you will be proud of
no matter what.

It's time to say goodbye...

By the time I say good bye...
You won't care anymore...
By the time I come back...
You still won't care I came back.
If I asked of you to give me one more chance...
Will you give it to me?
Even I promise you something in return?
I never thought losing your closest friends
would hurt so much...
I never thought sadness could overcome you...
But I can never stop and die...
I can move on and forget all those precious memories we made,
held and spend together.
I hope you too have a happy life without me being there...
to see all of your smiling faces.
I wish I could change who I am...
but it takes practice and no one is perfect...
And well...Goodbye...for now.

Just a Mere Endless Trap

Can't you see that you are already in my trap?

Why aren't you struggling to get out?

Do you not want your freedom?

Do you not want to find your perfect girl?

For I am not your perfect girl…

I don’t believe I was your perfect girl in the first place.

I know there’s no such thing as a perfect girl,

but trust me,

I'm just a mere endless trap,

a hole in the ground.

Some people see it, but others don’t.

The people who do fall in manage to get out.

But others just stay here in my endless trap.

Why are you here?

Why am I here?

Didn't I tell you? I’m just a mere trap.

I want you to be free…away from me.

Can't you see that I want to see you smile?

I never intended to hurt you.

But in the end, I do because I’m just a mere endless trap.

My Endless Trap

I can’t get you out of my mind…

I don’t think my heart can take this…

this love…

There are so many secrets to keep, yet

my heart is about to burst.

I want to share the world what I feel…

but I know that I cannot

for I have made everyone a promise.

I don’t want to break my promise

like I did in the past…

I don’t want to fall into my endless trap.

I don’t want you to fall into my trap.

I hope you can soon be free…

for you do not want to be here…

in my endless trap.

Fade Away

Each and every one of us -
we all begin to fade away.
Then we are forgotten
by the time we finally come back.
"Who are you?" one asked.
I reply, "Someone you would have known...
if I didn't fade away."

Why can't I understand you?

You say that you're okay,
but you know that you're not.
I try so hard not to hate you,
but I end up hurting you.
I don't hate you for no reason...
There's always a reason.
I don't hate you at all.
I just don't understand...or rather
can't understand you.
I'm not mad at you.
I'm mad at myself that I just can't understand you.
So...frustrating....

Nothing But Rubble

There was only nothing but rubble
when I arrived at Moore, Oklahoma.
Destroyed houses, dead animals
and destroyed cars everywhere I look.
All this rubble
and the sad faces
makes me so heartbroken.
I know that I can't help as much,
but I know that I can make a difference.

Hope

I Wish I Could Be Part of Your World

Sitting on the deep dark ocean floor,

I glance up to see the sun shining

through that small hole of my dome.

I sigh as the sun gleams

on my gadgets and gizmos.

I look at my fins and then back at the sun.

Oh for I wish that warmth sun shining on me

as I walk freely on the streets,

as I lay on the beach

or even as I dance with my love one.

Why does my heart burn

when I keep on thinking of him?

I swim to the top of my dome

and reach out my hand through that small hole

as he was there to take me away.

His image fades away as I slowly sink

to the cold dark bottom of the ocean.

Solitude by Lucas Lin

Here's a link that he made too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yk5DOoAXUmk

As it rains, I sit here,
Pondering about the meaning of life.
I stare into the rain, observing each drop,
Thinking how meaningful each drop is,
but at the same time it's meaningless.
Each drop having such a short time to live,
before being replaced by another.
There is just a little sad sentiment to it.
Each drop living its life not seeing another one.
A life in solitude, so close yet so far away.
But its okay. There is just a short time before they join together again.
The ocean is where they mingle.
The ocean itself so powerful, engulfing each drop.
The waves crashing
and then, receding slowly after.
But its nice to know that nothing was wasted in the process.

A random poem for an imaginary guy

Leaving me behind was the biggest mistake you have ever done.
Enchantingly, he made my world glow like I was important. You
Opened my heart and I fell in love with him.

I can never forget what you had done but I can forgive you for I have fallen in love.
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I wrote this poem for my fake self who was a guy...lol His name was Leo.

To Veronika, my muffin~ (close friend)

The first time I met you
was a Hollywood dream.
I know it doesn't rhyme
but does it really matter?
Writing this poem
seems difficult
than it seems.
I love you for who you are
'cuz you're my shooting star.
Promise me you won't go away
b-cuz without you
my world would be incomplete.
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Valentines day was almost here. She was

Excited for the first time
Receiving a red rose
On that day meant the world to her.
Nothing could ever stop her from falling
In love with him. She has a
Kind heart
And is amazingly awesome.