The Day I Left You

You stood there
with your eyes empty,
ready to cry any moment.
You stood there,
shaking uncontrollably.

"I wanted you to stay,"
you said to me.
"You were always perfect
to me,"
you said to me.
But you weren't to me.

I always wanted
to get away from you,
because I wasn't the right one
for you.
But I couldn't because
I was afraid to break you;
to break your heart.

I'm sorry for not telling you
for all these days, weeks, months, years
I spent with you.
I don't expect you to forgive me.
Good bye, my love.

The Day You Left Me

I can't say it's okay anymore
because every time I do,
I want to silently cry.
I can't say it's okay
because it would be lying.
I can't handle this emptiness,
this pain anymore.
I can't say it's fine.
I can't say it's alright.
It would be all lying.
I want to cry silently to sleep
and wake up from this awful nightmare
and pretend it never happened:
the day when you left
me.

A Broken Heart

Shattering
Something's shattering
What is shattering?

A broken heart,
that's what shattering
into a million of pieces.
It hurts;
it makes tears fall
from my face,
and I know I can't stop it
because that's how pain works.
It won't stop until I cry,
cry until I sleep
and wake up with tears in my eyes.
But I must bare it,
this pain.

It will all go away
and when it does,
I would have to just forget about it
and move on.

The Reason Why

The Reason Why
I'm not here
is to protect
my family and friends.

The Reason why
I'm not here
is because
I don't want
to be a burden
to anyone anymore.

The reason why
I'm not here
is because
you would be
better off
without me.

The reason why
I'm still here
is because
I haven't give up
on myself,
on life
and/or on everything.