Poem for my Love

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings.
I'm sorry that I said it was weird.
I didn't know.
I didn't know it was for me.
I'm very oblivious to things like this, if you didn't notice.
From the bottom of my heart, I will love everything you do.
No matter if my cruel, honest thoughts get in the way.
But then again, why do you want to impress me?
Why me?
I'm not that important.
You already make me smile.
It's not your avatars; your poems; your art.
It's you; your personality.
Can't you see?
You don't need to impress me.
I'm already smiling
when I'm with you.

Please...Notice Me More

You look and smile at me
and yet I smile back.
But in reality, you're just hurting me.
Talking about the people you love
when I'm thinking about is
how I'm not better.
Better than them.

You say that I'm cute and sweet,
but in reality, it's probably all just an act.
No one knows me.
Not even me.
And yet you kept convincing me.

I always appreciated the things you do.
But in the end, I'm no match for them.
I'm just an angel.
An angel who is only there when you need her.
When really, she just wants you to notice her more...

Everyday Setback

I can't handle this pain any longer....
Will someone put me out of misery?
Is there anyone out there
willingly to comfort me?
I'm getting worse by the second,
    minute
       hour
         day
       week
     month
year
And no one seems to care.
They're too busy looking at
their problems.
And nobody will notice
that I will be gone
out of their lives,
out of this world
into the unknown.

The Choices One Makes

I can't be afraid any longer.
I have to learn
when to know to
face my fears.
But why am I so afraid?
He won't hurt me...
But I could...

But I don't want to.
But life is full of choices.
One has the power to choose.
Whether it's good or evil,
it doesn't matter
because you're the one choosing.
So don't blame others
for your own choice;
it was I who chose this.

The Blind Girl

(this poem is written in a guy's perspective and it's written to the title, which is kinda ironic because the girl is not blind, she's more ignorant)

I can't stop
thinking about you:
your smile,
your laugh,
your cuteness...
Even though
you might think 
it's boring now
since you're used to
being called cute.
Nothing in this world
I can tell me so;
not even you.

It hurts me sometimes
on how many times
I upset you
because I made a stupid mistake.
I just can't stop caring about you.
I love you.
Can't you see that?

All I Want Is A Little Bit Of Love

(this is in the perspective of a guy who still loves the girl)

The reason why 
I still go on this journey
is because
you're in it.
The reason why
I can't stop searching
is because
I fell in love with you.
But you can't see that
because we're just friends,
but we were once a cute couple.
Or so I believed.

You asked
if you were all worth it.
I answer,
"Of course you are.
Every part of you is worth knowing."
But you obviously don't believe me
because you just see me as your friend
and nothing more.
You're worrying about
the future
and what lies there.

Some day, I hope,
I'll earn my way
to get your affections
because
You're really worth all of it.

Break-up Problems

I don't understand
why you still chase me,
why you won't stop trying.
I just wanted to be friends
but it's awkward
because I can see your loving  eyes
gazing at me.
You keep petting me like a pet
even though I'm just a human being.
I give you very tiny hints,
but I feel like you're just
putting it aside
for later.
And when I really push it,
you say okay and still keep trying.
Am I really worth it?




I'm becoming someone I'm not...but of course you don't see it. I don't need any saving...so stop saying you'll come save me and you'll be there. "I don't want you. I don't need you." - Lie by Luka

Demon Girl

In the day,
all you see is
a happy go lucky girl.
But inside that girl
lies a demon.

A Demon
who sucks away your
happiness
and turns it into
darkness.
All you'll have left is
pure bitterness.

I thought you knew that
everybody has a demon
inside of them,
hiding.
I don't want to tell you twice,
but don't get close to me,
it's dark inside.
It's where my demons hide.
It's where my demons hide.

Don't say I didn't warn you.

The Day I Left You

You stood there
with your eyes empty,
ready to cry any moment.
You stood there,
shaking uncontrollably.

"I wanted you to stay,"
you said to me.
"You were always perfect
to me,"
you said to me.
But you weren't to me.

I always wanted
to get away from you,
because I wasn't the right one
for you.
But I couldn't because
I was afraid to break you;
to break your heart.

I'm sorry for not telling you
for all these days, weeks, months, years
I spent with you.
I don't expect you to forgive me.
Good bye, my love.

The Day You Left Me

I can't say it's okay anymore
because every time I do,
I want to silently cry.
I can't say it's okay
because it would be lying.
I can't handle this emptiness,
this pain anymore.
I can't say it's fine.
I can't say it's alright.
It would be all lying.
I want to cry silently to sleep
and wake up from this awful nightmare
and pretend it never happened:
the day when you left
me.

A Broken Heart

Shattering
Something's shattering
What is shattering?

A broken heart,
that's what shattering
into a million of pieces.
It hurts;
it makes tears fall
from my face,
and I know I can't stop it
because that's how pain works.
It won't stop until I cry,
cry until I sleep
and wake up with tears in my eyes.
But I must bare it,
this pain.

It will all go away
and when it does,
I would have to just forget about it
and move on.

The Reason Why

The Reason Why
I'm not here
is to protect
my family and friends.

The Reason why
I'm not here
is because
I don't want
to be a burden
to anyone anymore.

The reason why
I'm not here
is because
you would be
better off
without me.

The reason why
I'm still here
is because
I haven't give up
on myself,
on life
and/or on everything.

Your Love and My Hope

I asked you why you liked me
you told me everything.
I asked you again.

You told me that
my personality is like
the sun showing up after
a gloomy rainstorm.
You told me
being with me
has lifted the heavy weight
that was on your shoulders
and/or heart.
You told me
that you liked my smile
or was it that
you liked seeing me happy?

I'm glad that
I made your life happier.
I'm glad I have lifted
the weight that was on
your...heart.
I wish I was happy,
but reality is always in my mind,
reminding me,
"It's all going to end soon."
Or is it?
I hope it doesn't.

Fractured 2

Warning: this is not mine; I found on a game called Fractured 2
http://armorgames.com/play/15833/fractured-2

I asked you once if the sun loved the other stars;
you looked at me and shook your head.
"He doesn't have time for such things," you said
nodding, I turned back to the horizon.

The sun hung low in the blushing sky;
it's still a star and all stars die.
I shuddered at the thought, random as it was.

Darkness came and crickets chirped;
There was the familiar scuff of boots on dirt;
I turned to find that you had gone.
The moon and fog are better company;
though just as silent, I know what they expect of me.

Winter is a long and lonely season;
Spring comes as a sweet surprise;
Autumn is summer's swift demise.
Though, I do not understand the point;
you barely fit twenty_four hours in a day.
Why set my heart to a seasonal delay?

Home was soon an afterthought.
I counted the stars like missed chances
and listened intently for sacred wind dances.
I paused momentarily to curse the sun
too stubborn to pause and love someone.
At the end, we were no different.

Fractured

Warning: not mine; found them on a game called Fractured
http://armorgames.com/play/14570/fractured

I hope and pray that I will find
the child that I have left behind.

For as I hear the madness gloat,
a frightened scream rips from my throat.

A child's love, with blind ambition
against my panicked admonition

into the heart of evil's lair
I battle on, without despair.

And search and wander as I might
I see no ending to my plight.

There's no point in searching more
for I'm the one he's searching for.

I Smile :)

Dark clouds,
thunderstorms,
cold winds,
and I'm all alone.

The cold winds stop,
the dark clouds break
and appears a light in a sky.

Sun shining,

warm winds blowing,
and I'm smiling.

A fresh fragrance of flowers
roam in the air,
as I slowly take my time
strolling, breathing in,
and smiling.

My face burning with warmth
as I smile,
thinking about you.
My face burning with warmth
as I smile,
thinking about
holding your hand.

I don't have to pretend
to smile anymore.
I don't have to pretend
anymore.
I feel free.
I feel happy
as I smile...freely.

A New Feeling

Eyes closed
and all I see is darkness.
But I could feel gravity
pulling me down,
making me sink
down the cold, dark ocean.

Eyes opened
and all I see is 
the dark blue ocean above me.
But I'm not suffocating.

The skies have cleared up
and the sun starts to shine
upon the dark ocean.

I feel the warmth.
What is this feeling?
I don't feel sad;
I don't feel alone;
I feel this lovely
warm comfort.
I feel...happy...

But happy endings don't exist,
or do they?

Emptiness

Emptiness
is all I ever feel.
Laying on glass,
looking at the blank sky;
nothing moving.
And yet I don't feel
any sadness or happiness.
Just Empty.

I could just stand up

and move to a new destination
where I would feel something;
anything at all.
But what is the use moving
to a place I might be unhappy?
Can't I just stay here in this empty
and boring world?
Feeling nothing?

Sounds boring
and pretty pathetic.
It's not always fun to
be alone
feeling nothing but emptiness...

I'll finally be Free

I want to shoot my heart into a thousand pieces
and let all the pain gush out of me.
I want to forget all the horrible and stupid mistakes
I have done.
I wish I could start my life over,
not feeling so guilty.
But you only live once...
or do you?

I regret so many things,
but I have to suck it up and deal with it.
I tell myself, "Keep ignoring them. 
Don't let them get into your head. Fight them.
Forget them. Keep surviving. Don't give up.

Be Brave. Move on."

Sooner or later, I'll be free from guilt;
free from regret.
I'll be happy.
I'll finally be free.

Just Go Away.

I ask you to leave me be
but you don't.
Why can't you understand
I want my privacy?
Do I have to simply
yell at you to go away?
You are a bother to me.
I hate you for all those
horrible things you do to me.
What have I done wrong?
Do you think you're protecting me?
Do you think this is all for my own good?
YOU DON'T FRICKEN CARE.
You're just an annoying brother
who likes to get me into trouble.
Be thankful I didn't give up on living.