I Do What I Want

I Do What I Want
whether you like it or not.
You can't always tell me
what I can or cannot do.
Maybe you can ... but
will I listen to your desires?

Sometimes I know that you
always want the best out of me,
but sometimes you can get
a little out of hand.

I may not know everything by now,

but you do not have to protect me
every second of my life.
Let me learn from my mistakes
even if I do it repeatedly.
Don't be angry for not listening
to your requests, your desires,
your hopes and dreams ...
because maybe, in the future,
I will become someone
you will not expect in life.
Someone not like you.
But maybe, if you get lucky,
I'll become someone
you will be proud of
no matter what.

It's time to say goodbye...

By the time I say good bye...
You won't care anymore...
By the time I come back...
You still won't care I came back.
If I asked of you to give me one more chance...
Will you give it to me?
Even I promise you something in return?
I never thought losing your closest friends
would hurt so much...
I never thought sadness could overcome you...
But I can never stop and die...
I can move on and forget all those precious memories we made,
held and spend together.
I hope you too have a happy life without me being there...
to see all of your smiling faces.
I wish I could change who I am...
but it takes practice and no one is perfect...
And well...Goodbye...for now.

Just a Mere Endless Trap

Can't you see that you are already in my trap?

Why aren't you struggling to get out?

Do you not want your freedom?

Do you not want to find your perfect girl?

For I am not your perfect girl…

I don’t believe I was your perfect girl in the first place.

I know there’s no such thing as a perfect girl,

but trust me,

I'm just a mere endless trap,

a hole in the ground.

Some people see it, but others don’t.

The people who do fall in manage to get out.

But others just stay here in my endless trap.

Why are you here?

Why am I here?

Didn't I tell you? I’m just a mere trap.

I want you to be free…away from me.

Can't you see that I want to see you smile?

I never intended to hurt you.

But in the end, I do because I’m just a mere endless trap.

My Endless Trap

I can’t get you out of my mind…

I don’t think my heart can take this…

this love…

There are so many secrets to keep, yet

my heart is about to burst.

I want to share the world what I feel…

but I know that I cannot

for I have made everyone a promise.

I don’t want to break my promise

like I did in the past…

I don’t want to fall into my endless trap.

I don’t want you to fall into my trap.

I hope you can soon be free…

for you do not want to be here…

in my endless trap.

Fade Away

Each and every one of us -
we all begin to fade away.
Then we are forgotten
by the time we finally come back.
"Who are you?" one asked.
I reply, "Someone you would have known...
if I didn't fade away."

Why can't I understand you?

You say that you're okay,
but you know that you're not.
I try so hard not to hate you,
but I end up hurting you.
I don't hate you for no reason...
There's always a reason.
I don't hate you at all.
I just don't understand...or rather
can't understand you.
I'm not mad at you.
I'm mad at myself that I just can't understand you.
So...frustrating....

Nothing But Rubble

There was only nothing but rubble
when I arrived at Moore, Oklahoma.
Destroyed houses, dead animals
and destroyed cars everywhere I look.
All this rubble
and the sad faces
makes me so heartbroken.
I know that I can't help as much,
but I know that I can make a difference.

Hope