The Reason Why

The Reason Why
I'm not here
is to protect
my family and friends.

The Reason why
I'm not here
is because
I don't want
to be a burden
to anyone anymore.

The reason why
I'm not here
is because
you would be
better off
without me.

The reason why
I'm still here
is because
I haven't give up
on myself,
on life
and/or on everything.

Your Love and My Hope

I asked you why you liked me
you told me everything.
I asked you again.

You told me that
my personality is like
the sun showing up after
a gloomy rainstorm.
You told me
being with me
has lifted the heavy weight
that was on your shoulders
and/or heart.
You told me
that you liked my smile
or was it that
you liked seeing me happy?

I'm glad that
I made your life happier.
I'm glad I have lifted
the weight that was on
your...heart.
I wish I was happy,
but reality is always in my mind,
reminding me,
"It's all going to end soon."
Or is it?
I hope it doesn't.

Fractured 2

Warning: this is not mine; I found on a game called Fractured 2
http://armorgames.com/play/15833/fractured-2

I asked you once if the sun loved the other stars;
you looked at me and shook your head.
"He doesn't have time for such things," you said
nodding, I turned back to the horizon.

The sun hung low in the blushing sky;
it's still a star and all stars die.
I shuddered at the thought, random as it was.

Darkness came and crickets chirped;
There was the familiar scuff of boots on dirt;
I turned to find that you had gone.
The moon and fog are better company;
though just as silent, I know what they expect of me.

Winter is a long and lonely season;
Spring comes as a sweet surprise;
Autumn is summer's swift demise.
Though, I do not understand the point;
you barely fit twenty_four hours in a day.
Why set my heart to a seasonal delay?

Home was soon an afterthought.
I counted the stars like missed chances
and listened intently for sacred wind dances.
I paused momentarily to curse the sun
too stubborn to pause and love someone.
At the end, we were no different.

Fractured

Warning: not mine; found them on a game called Fractured
http://armorgames.com/play/14570/fractured

I hope and pray that I will find
the child that I have left behind.

For as I hear the madness gloat,
a frightened scream rips from my throat.

A child's love, with blind ambition
against my panicked admonition

into the heart of evil's lair
I battle on, without despair.

And search and wander as I might
I see no ending to my plight.

There's no point in searching more
for I'm the one he's searching for.

I Smile :)

Dark clouds,
thunderstorms,
cold winds,
and I'm all alone.

The cold winds stop,
the dark clouds break
and appears a light in a sky.

Sun shining,

warm winds blowing,
and I'm smiling.

A fresh fragrance of flowers
roam in the air,
as I slowly take my time
strolling, breathing in,
and smiling.

My face burning with warmth
as I smile,
thinking about you.
My face burning with warmth
as I smile,
thinking about
holding your hand.

I don't have to pretend
to smile anymore.
I don't have to pretend
anymore.
I feel free.
I feel happy
as I smile...freely.

A New Feeling

Eyes closed
and all I see is darkness.
But I could feel gravity
pulling me down,
making me sink
down the cold, dark ocean.

Eyes opened
and all I see is 
the dark blue ocean above me.
But I'm not suffocating.

The skies have cleared up
and the sun starts to shine
upon the dark ocean.

I feel the warmth.
What is this feeling?
I don't feel sad;
I don't feel alone;
I feel this lovely
warm comfort.
I feel...happy...

But happy endings don't exist,
or do they?

Emptiness

Emptiness
is all I ever feel.
Laying on glass,
looking at the blank sky;
nothing moving.
And yet I don't feel
any sadness or happiness.
Just Empty.

I could just stand up

and move to a new destination
where I would feel something;
anything at all.
But what is the use moving
to a place I might be unhappy?
Can't I just stay here in this empty
and boring world?
Feeling nothing?

Sounds boring
and pretty pathetic.
It's not always fun to
be alone
feeling nothing but emptiness...