Your Love and My Hope

I asked you why you liked me
you told me everything.
I asked you again.

You told me that
my personality is like
the sun showing up after
a gloomy rainstorm.
You told me
being with me
has lifted the heavy weight
that was on your shoulders
and/or heart.
You told me
that you liked my smile
or was it that
you liked seeing me happy?

I'm glad that
I made your life happier.
I'm glad I have lifted
the weight that was on
your...heart.
I wish I was happy,
but reality is always in my mind,
reminding me,
"It's all going to end soon."
Or is it?
I hope it doesn't.

Fractured 2

Warning: this is not mine; I found on a game called Fractured 2
http://armorgames.com/play/15833/fractured-2

I asked you once if the sun loved the other stars;
you looked at me and shook your head.
"He doesn't have time for such things," you said
nodding, I turned back to the horizon.

The sun hung low in the blushing sky;
it's still a star and all stars die.
I shuddered at the thought, random as it was.

Darkness came and crickets chirped;
There was the familiar scuff of boots on dirt;
I turned to find that you had gone.
The moon and fog are better company;
though just as silent, I know what they expect of me.

Winter is a long and lonely season;
Spring comes as a sweet surprise;
Autumn is summer's swift demise.
Though, I do not understand the point;
you barely fit twenty_four hours in a day.
Why set my heart to a seasonal delay?

Home was soon an afterthought.
I counted the stars like missed chances
and listened intently for sacred wind dances.
I paused momentarily to curse the sun
too stubborn to pause and love someone.
At the end, we were no different.

Fractured

Warning: not mine; found them on a game called Fractured
http://armorgames.com/play/14570/fractured

I hope and pray that I will find
the child that I have left behind.

For as I hear the madness gloat,
a frightened scream rips from my throat.

A child's love, with blind ambition
against my panicked admonition

into the heart of evil's lair
I battle on, without despair.

And search and wander as I might
I see no ending to my plight.

There's no point in searching more
for I'm the one he's searching for.

I Smile :)

Dark clouds,
thunderstorms,
cold winds,
and I'm all alone.

The cold winds stop,
the dark clouds break
and appears a light in a sky.

Sun shining,

warm winds blowing,
and I'm smiling.

A fresh fragrance of flowers
roam in the air,
as I slowly take my time
strolling, breathing in,
and smiling.

My face burning with warmth
as I smile,
thinking about you.
My face burning with warmth
as I smile,
thinking about
holding your hand.

I don't have to pretend
to smile anymore.
I don't have to pretend
anymore.
I feel free.
I feel happy
as I smile...freely.

A New Feeling

Eyes closed
and all I see is darkness.
But I could feel gravity
pulling me down,
making me sink
down the cold, dark ocean.

Eyes opened
and all I see is 
the dark blue ocean above me.
But I'm not suffocating.

The skies have cleared up
and the sun starts to shine
upon the dark ocean.

I feel the warmth.
What is this feeling?
I don't feel sad;
I don't feel alone;
I feel this lovely
warm comfort.
I feel...happy...

But happy endings don't exist,
or do they?

Emptiness

Emptiness
is all I ever feel.
Laying on glass,
looking at the blank sky;
nothing moving.
And yet I don't feel
any sadness or happiness.
Just Empty.

I could just stand up

and move to a new destination
where I would feel something;
anything at all.
But what is the use moving
to a place I might be unhappy?
Can't I just stay here in this empty
and boring world?
Feeling nothing?

Sounds boring
and pretty pathetic.
It's not always fun to
be alone
feeling nothing but emptiness...

I'll finally be Free

I want to shoot my heart into a thousand pieces
and let all the pain gush out of me.
I want to forget all the horrible and stupid mistakes
I have done.
I wish I could start my life over,
not feeling so guilty.
But you only live once...
or do you?

I regret so many things,
but I have to suck it up and deal with it.
I tell myself, "Keep ignoring them. 
Don't let them get into your head. Fight them.
Forget them. Keep surviving. Don't give up.

Be Brave. Move on."

Sooner or later, I'll be free from guilt;
free from regret.
I'll be happy.
I'll finally be free.