Break-up Problems

I don't understand
why you still chase me,
why you won't stop trying.
I just wanted to be friends
but it's awkward
because I can see your loving  eyes
gazing at me.
You keep petting me like a pet
even though I'm just a human being.
I give you very tiny hints,
but I feel like you're just
putting it aside
for later.
And when I really push it,
you say okay and still keep trying.
Am I really worth it?




I'm becoming someone I'm not...but of course you don't see it. I don't need any saving...so stop saying you'll come save me and you'll be there. "I don't want you. I don't need you." - Lie by Luka

Demon Girl

In the day,
all you see is
a happy go lucky girl.
But inside that girl
lies a demon.

A Demon
who sucks away your
happiness
and turns it into
darkness.
All you'll have left is
pure bitterness.

I thought you knew that
everybody has a demon
inside of them,
hiding.
I don't want to tell you twice,
but don't get close to me,
it's dark inside.
It's where my demons hide.
It's where my demons hide.

Don't say I didn't warn you.

The Day I Left You

You stood there
with your eyes empty,
ready to cry any moment.
You stood there,
shaking uncontrollably.

"I wanted you to stay,"
you said to me.
"You were always perfect
to me,"
you said to me.
But you weren't to me.

I always wanted
to get away from you,
because I wasn't the right one
for you.
But I couldn't because
I was afraid to break you;
to break your heart.

I'm sorry for not telling you
for all these days, weeks, months, years
I spent with you.
I don't expect you to forgive me.
Good bye, my love.

The Day You Left Me

I can't say it's okay anymore
because every time I do,
I want to silently cry.
I can't say it's okay
because it would be lying.
I can't handle this emptiness,
this pain anymore.
I can't say it's fine.
I can't say it's alright.
It would be all lying.
I want to cry silently to sleep
and wake up from this awful nightmare
and pretend it never happened:
the day when you left
me.

A Broken Heart

Shattering
Something's shattering
What is shattering?

A broken heart,
that's what shattering
into a million of pieces.
It hurts;
it makes tears fall
from my face,
and I know I can't stop it
because that's how pain works.
It won't stop until I cry,
cry until I sleep
and wake up with tears in my eyes.
But I must bare it,
this pain.

It will all go away
and when it does,
I would have to just forget about it
and move on.

The Reason Why

The Reason Why
I'm not here
is to protect
my family and friends.

The Reason why
I'm not here
is because
I don't want
to be a burden
to anyone anymore.

The reason why
I'm not here
is because
you would be
better off
without me.

The reason why
I'm still here
is because
I haven't give up
on myself,
on life
and/or on everything.

Your Love and My Hope

I asked you why you liked me
you told me everything.
I asked you again.

You told me that
my personality is like
the sun showing up after
a gloomy rainstorm.
You told me
being with me
has lifted the heavy weight
that was on your shoulders
and/or heart.
You told me
that you liked my smile
or was it that
you liked seeing me happy?

I'm glad that
I made your life happier.
I'm glad I have lifted
the weight that was on
your...heart.
I wish I was happy,
but reality is always in my mind,
reminding me,
"It's all going to end soon."
Or is it?
I hope it doesn't.